Weds

Monday evening was tough for us, but truthfully, the viewing/visitation was comforting. Many friends were there to lend their support and as my cousin said, "when someone passes away, family HAS to attend, but it is a true testament to the person who passes when so many friends come from so far to be there." I completely agree and thank everyone who attended and sent messages to my family.

The funeral service yesterday was far more difficult, but it truly was a celebration of Uncle Bill's life and gave us the closure that we all needed.

I am thankful for so much as this year closes and hope and pray that 2009 keeps those that I luv, safe, happy and healthy.

Bring on '09!!

He is at peace

We got the call this morning that Uncle Bill was at peace.........my aunt's phone rang just after 6am and they rushed over to the hospital one last time. Uncle Bill waited for them. His O2 level jumped into the 90;s when Aunt Sue took his hand and then he flatlined.

By 8:05 he had left this world peacefully and will endure no more pain. Now to try to pick up the pieces and move on for my family, esp. for my dear aunt. She and Uncle Bill were married for 39 years and she has NEVER ever lived alone..........

My heart is aching and my eyes are puffy from crying, but I am so very thankful that he is no longer struggling for breath and that he is at peace.

I hope that the hospital can ultimately figure out what happened and I pray for the nurse that administered the wrong medication. I am not xactly certain how she will live with her mistake...

I just don't get "it"

We enjoyed a very nice, yet brief visit with my Virginia family for Christmas. Actually opened gifts and then took a nice drive down to Venice Beach. Yes folks we were at the beach in 80 degree weather on Christmas Day. The water was crystal clear and the VA crowd found lots of sharks teeth. Venice is known for them. I spent the better part of the afternoon getting to know my new camera and zoom lens. What fun. Yesterday we went up to Homosassa and spent the day at the park with the manatees. Truly a gorgeous afternoon.

I am fuming angry right now and somewhat afraid of what I might say, so I will say just what I can to vent.........I just don't get "it".
Why things happen the way that they do and how to get past being so incredibly angry right now that I just can't let it go.............

I pray for the ability to do so. I hope for the strength to get passed all of this and I truly wish that I could make it better........
I realize that we are all human-I "get" that, but how/why do things happen and what/who is controlling it? Gosh, I wish I had some of the answers. In the meantime, say some prayers tonite PLEASE. A prayer for the "human" and her grave error, a prayer for our family to be strong enough and most especially for my incredible Uncle who has endured wayyyyy more than anyone should ever have to and now this.

And for those small minded, completely and oh so totally ignorant human beings-I hope that you are truthfully so ignorant as to know how much pain you cause others, but truthfully, u are so simple minded, you don't even "get" it and I do so totally "get" that.........

Off to bed...........I NEED to let it all go,
Jax

Tuesday Tuesday

Went to bed WAAAYYYY too late for me yesterday, well late for most. It was after 1am, but dh and I finally had a few minutes of peace and quiet and I got scrappy after that. Made a cute lil something.
Woke up tired this morning and before i had done anything it was like 11am. YIKES.
I have been trying to clean up as my sister and family arrive tom. night(not to mention the BIG guy who will be here too and he doesn't like messy houses any more than my bil Jason).

Off to Kohl's to try to find a pair of pants that fit. I have dropped several sizes lately and the 10P's are falling off despite the belt that is trying to hold them up. NO luck. I found nothing for me. Oh well. Punch another hole in the belt.
Almost out of gas and boy was it nice nice nice to fill up the entire tank for under $18. YEAH. QUICK and I mean QUICK run into the mall. Mind you, I am NOT a fan of the mall at any point in time, but the day before the day before Christmas, NOT my favorite place. It is esp. not fun with a four year old who also woke up tired and a bit on the whiny side. But seriously, parked in handicapped at Sears, ran into Sears, bought one item, and outta there. The parking lot was a zoo, so glad that I didn't have to deal with more than that.

Off to feed the lil bugger at Chick Fil A. He snorked SIX nuggets and 3/4 of my chix. sandwich as well.........then played HARD. Nice breeze blowing outside and although the grocery store is on my agenda today with a list at least half mile long(6 xtra people arriving), I did NOT want to attempt that with the mood either one of us is in. So, we came home to wrap the gift from Sears, and relax a bit. Hoping that Daddy gets in soon and I will run out to the grocery store before I completely and totally run outta gas.

That's all that is new here for the most part. I am also hoping to run over to the hospital. Uncle Bill is reportedly cranky today, but he has been in a chair for two days in a row and was moved OUT of ICU today down to the second floor. The man is truly amazing.

Going to go and lay down for a few. Have a great Tuesday all. It is nearly 80 degrees here today. NOT feeling much like Christmas but the Virginia crew will def. enjoy it.

It was brought to my attention that I hadn't blogged in awhile(thanx Darren), so I thought that I would check in.
Nothing has changed around here.
We had a nice, yet busy weekend at the Palatial Durning estate. Finally got some holiday cheer going by attending the Bay Crest faculty party at Theo's. I swear they will never let us come back as Joshy NEVER wants to leave every single time we go there. Stac-want a 4th child??

The boat parade was new to me and it was so nice. Really a great time........got some good pics too.
We decorated the tree as well, some nice family time.

Other than that, today is our first real day of "vacation" and we are looking forward to the Marmor's arriving on Weds.
Happy Holidays to all,
Jax

the end is near

The hospital just called and it looks like the end is very near. Sadly, his respirations are very low. The rest of the family is on their way over there to say their good-bye's. I hope they get there in time so that he is not alone or afraid.

My Uncle sure is a trooper. He is soooo loved and will be dearly missed by those of us around him-NOT just his family, but everyone who knows him.

Say a prayer for a peaceful ending to a long and difficult fight..........34 days, but who was counting.

Sunday updates

Wish there was actually something to update, but there really isn't.

Joshy and I drove all the way down to South Tpa this morning to see another pediatrician. I swear that I am going to just have my entire paycheck assigned to PHA this month as I think we have seen 4 doctors in 6 weeks time. But, truth be told, I am glad they were open and glad that we went. I just hate seeing my lil guy sick. Another prescription and hoping it will clear him up.

Uncle Bill is a STRONG man as he is still hanging on. I am going to run over there in a bit as soon as John gets home with Joshy's meds. My heart is breaking for Aunt Sue and there is nothing that I can do or say to make it better.

We did some major straightening up yesterday in the hopes that we can attempt to decorate somewhat before the day ends. I will keep you posted.

Enjoy this glorious day.
Jax