My life as I knew it changed forever!! It was about this time on Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 that I was called to the office at school wondering which parent was there complaining about something I had done or said.
I walked in to find John and his mother standing there telling me that my father was "gone."
I accused him of lying to me as my father was coming up on Friday to see our new house. He had said as much in our phone conversation just hours before on Monday night.
I do not remember much after that truthfully, but it still hurts as much as it did FIVE years ago...
There is truthfully a whole in my heart that will NEVER ever be filled again completely.
I do take great pride in knowing that my father died a dignified man and my sparring partner is now blonde, with blue eyes and answers to the name of Dennis when he needs to, but truthfully,
I MISS YOU DADDY!!
Please continue to watch over us and send a sign every now and again to let us know that you are OKAY.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
scrappy weekend
Friday it worked out perfectly that dh would pick ds up at outlaws house and i could go to the lss and crop. it was so much fun. i didn't get as much accomplished as i would have liked, but i got to spend time with the girls and began the set up on my 365 album. i surely didn't realize that just setting it up would take that long. wow.
yesterday, dh went fishing with fil and then came home and took the munchkin to the park. i had hours of time to do more set up. YEAH.
dinner in st. pete ended with us going to HD and buying a brand spanking new washer and dryer to be delivered on Saturday.
back to st. pete this afternoon for a birthday celebration. looks like it is going to be a great weekend all around, just not quite long enough. ha.
yesterday, dh went fishing with fil and then came home and took the munchkin to the park. i had hours of time to do more set up. YEAH.
dinner in st. pete ended with us going to HD and buying a brand spanking new washer and dryer to be delivered on Saturday.
back to st. pete this afternoon for a birthday celebration. looks like it is going to be a great weekend all around, just not quite long enough. ha.
Monday, January 19, 2009
busy weekend
we had a very busy weekend, but got a whole lot accomplished and had lots of fun too.
i won a few brownie points i am sure when i told dh to go to the train show with my fil on saturday instead of attending the first of the two birthday parties we had on our calendar for the weekend.
i went with ds and we had fun. it was good to catch up some former teamates and teachers i used to work with and the kids really had a blast.
then i went over to aunt sue's to spend a bit of time with her. we didn't stay too long but long enough for joshy to get his aunt sue fix and vice versa.
after that we headed over to sp and met up with dh. quick dinner and ds stayed at the house while johnnie and i ran over to home depot and lowe's to do some washer and dryer preliminary shopping.
we walked out as I was on W&D OVERLOAD. who knew there were sooooooo stinking many. i was totally my father in Lowe's when I heard myself say, "Electrolux makes vaccums and LG made my old cell phone." It is kinda like buying a car made by Hoover ya know? YIKES> I have become my father. But truth be told, I just want a dryer that will actually DRY my clothes on ONE cycle not the THREE that it is currently taking.
Sunday was birthday party number two and that was in SP as well. We had a fun time with my friend Laura, her hubby Doug and their two boys. Joshy and Alex have been friends since before they were born-literally and have not missed ONE of each other's parties in four years. I can't say that about some relatives much less friends. LOL.
Dinner at mil's house watching the game-well, I wasn't watching. I was reading Simple Scrapbooks, but they were all watching their beloved Eagles' demise.
Today the little man went to school, I went to Famous Tate to check out more W&D and then ran some errands. I actually had about two hours of quiet time(how come school days for me don't fly by nearly as quickly???).
I never did get to scrap at all as I got busy hanging some pictures and dusting some shelves. UGH. no wonder they are so dusty, NOT my favorite thing to do by far.
So that is the excitement. Nothing new going on really. I have car rider duty this week and the high tom. is supposed to be a blustery and windy 54 degrees so I had better go and dig out a winter coat. Weds is supposed to be sunny but even cooler. BRRR.
Off to give the lil guy a bath that he desperately needs and then try to soak in the tub myself when he is done. Have a great night and HOORAY for what tomorrow brings........more change, but this one is welcomed. Ta ta GWB........may no one with that last name run our state or our country anytime soon.
i won a few brownie points i am sure when i told dh to go to the train show with my fil on saturday instead of attending the first of the two birthday parties we had on our calendar for the weekend.
i went with ds and we had fun. it was good to catch up some former teamates and teachers i used to work with and the kids really had a blast.
then i went over to aunt sue's to spend a bit of time with her. we didn't stay too long but long enough for joshy to get his aunt sue fix and vice versa.
after that we headed over to sp and met up with dh. quick dinner and ds stayed at the house while johnnie and i ran over to home depot and lowe's to do some washer and dryer preliminary shopping.
we walked out as I was on W&D OVERLOAD. who knew there were sooooooo stinking many. i was totally my father in Lowe's when I heard myself say, "Electrolux makes vaccums and LG made my old cell phone." It is kinda like buying a car made by Hoover ya know? YIKES> I have become my father. But truth be told, I just want a dryer that will actually DRY my clothes on ONE cycle not the THREE that it is currently taking.
Sunday was birthday party number two and that was in SP as well. We had a fun time with my friend Laura, her hubby Doug and their two boys. Joshy and Alex have been friends since before they were born-literally and have not missed ONE of each other's parties in four years. I can't say that about some relatives much less friends. LOL.
Dinner at mil's house watching the game-well, I wasn't watching. I was reading Simple Scrapbooks, but they were all watching their beloved Eagles' demise.
Today the little man went to school, I went to Famous Tate to check out more W&D and then ran some errands. I actually had about two hours of quiet time(how come school days for me don't fly by nearly as quickly???).
I never did get to scrap at all as I got busy hanging some pictures and dusting some shelves. UGH. no wonder they are so dusty, NOT my favorite thing to do by far.
So that is the excitement. Nothing new going on really. I have car rider duty this week and the high tom. is supposed to be a blustery and windy 54 degrees so I had better go and dig out a winter coat. Weds is supposed to be sunny but even cooler. BRRR.
Off to give the lil guy a bath that he desperately needs and then try to soak in the tub myself when he is done. Have a great night and HOORAY for what tomorrow brings........more change, but this one is welcomed. Ta ta GWB........may no one with that last name run our state or our country anytime soon.
and it keeps on
CHANGING.....
so last week I wrote about all that keeps changing in my life and how I am "trying" to deal with it. Jamie is leaving the MS Society and the walks were going to be in Phil's capable hands. Okay, I was dealing with that pretty well, until I got the email that said the usual, "due to the economy and restructuring, yada yada yada, Phil is no longer with the chapter. UGH.
I did have the weekend to digest that although not well when I get an email this morning that the President of our HOA(of which I am on the Board of Director's as well) has succumbed to the complete and total nonsense going on and RESIGNED. JEEEEZZZZZZ.
i am not entirely certain if this has just been an incredible three months of CHANGE(more so than usual) or if I am just MUCH more aware. Regardless, it is DEF. staying my word for the year.
so last week I wrote about all that keeps changing in my life and how I am "trying" to deal with it. Jamie is leaving the MS Society and the walks were going to be in Phil's capable hands. Okay, I was dealing with that pretty well, until I got the email that said the usual, "due to the economy and restructuring, yada yada yada, Phil is no longer with the chapter. UGH.
I did have the weekend to digest that although not well when I get an email this morning that the President of our HOA(of which I am on the Board of Director's as well) has succumbed to the complete and total nonsense going on and RESIGNED. JEEEEZZZZZZ.
i am not entirely certain if this has just been an incredible three months of CHANGE(more so than usual) or if I am just MUCH more aware. Regardless, it is DEF. staying my word for the year.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
C~H~A~N~G~E~
this has no doubt become my word. oy. not sure how, but it def. has.
i started out my ms walk meeting tonite talking about how much i don't like it, how my whole world and life as i knew it has changed........only to have jamie(the most incredible walk ms manager) look me into the eyes and as the tears rolled out of hers, announce that she is leaving the ms society at the end of the month.
i am so very xcited for her new opportunity, but devestated over losing what feels like another member of my xtended family.
the ms society has become my family and kathy is gone, melissa has moved home and now jamie is leaving us, right in the middle of walk season. gosh.
she leaves us in the more than capable hands of mr. phil, but just NOT the same.
I cried my eyes out as i walked her out to her car, full well knowing how much of herself she has given US and she thanks ME for all that I have done.
I feel like the mouse and by golly, WHO MOVED MY CHEESE.
But, I am not hyperventillating and it will be just fine. it will be just fine. it will be just fine.......not strarting to believe it but I will keep telling myself that.............it will be just fine.
Good Luck Jamie. You will make a fabulous teacher and I am so fortunate to have met you and learned so much from you. PROMISE to stay in touch. With luv and respect, Jax
i started out my ms walk meeting tonite talking about how much i don't like it, how my whole world and life as i knew it has changed........only to have jamie(the most incredible walk ms manager) look me into the eyes and as the tears rolled out of hers, announce that she is leaving the ms society at the end of the month.
i am so very xcited for her new opportunity, but devestated over losing what feels like another member of my xtended family.
the ms society has become my family and kathy is gone, melissa has moved home and now jamie is leaving us, right in the middle of walk season. gosh.
she leaves us in the more than capable hands of mr. phil, but just NOT the same.
I cried my eyes out as i walked her out to her car, full well knowing how much of herself she has given US and she thanks ME for all that I have done.
I feel like the mouse and by golly, WHO MOVED MY CHEESE.
But, I am not hyperventillating and it will be just fine. it will be just fine. it will be just fine.......not strarting to believe it but I will keep telling myself that.............it will be just fine.
Good Luck Jamie. You will make a fabulous teacher and I am so fortunate to have met you and learned so much from you. PROMISE to stay in touch. With luv and respect, Jax
Monday, January 12, 2009
survived day care/pre school number two
our first day of preschool number two. he seems to have had fun, but wanna get t his? my FOUR year old has homework tonite. Holy cow.
anxiously awaiting the UPS man. Project 365 will be here any minute. WOO HOOOO.
Jax
anxiously awaiting the UPS man. Project 365 will be here any minute. WOO HOOOO.
Jax
Saturday, January 10, 2009
An emotionally draining week
I had mentally prepared myself to return to school on Tuesday and although I had not graded a single paper or scored a single writing test, I was excited to see my kiddos.
Joshy and I got ready for school and when I dropped him off at pre-school, there was an eeerie feeling in the lobby-I KNEW something was up. I walked him to class and after returning to the lobby, I was handed a letter informing us that his FABULOUS new preschool would be closing its doors on Friday for good.
Emotional. Tears. Sadness. Anger. Pretty much every emotion that I could muster up I did this week. Pozee Playzle had become a part of our extended family and what was a comfort in a difficult time for us was slamming the door in our face. LONG story short, it is over there. Some part of their ownership/management ran off with tons of money and paid NO bills. Corporate was brought in this week to deal with the parents and it just wasn't a warm and fuzzy place to be.
The Durning Family is truly devestated. We luved Pozee and what it represented to us and for us. Joshy luved his friends, Miss Vicky and most esp. Miss Beata.........yank yet another carpet out from under my child's feet. Good thing that children are resilient and much more so than we adults are.
Sometimes I wonder why things happen? I practice the philosophy that everything does happen for a reason, however, I am not certain at this point what xactly this reason might be, but I am sure that it will come to me.
As many/most people know, I also do NOT deal well with any kind of change. Well that has sure gone straight out the window of late as well. Perhaps some, if not all of this lately, is to teach ME, the unchangeable, that change is often not only good, but welcome. Heck, there is a saying about that isn't there?
Well, maybe that will be MY ali word for the year: in fact, it is: CHANGE. I wasn't even going to choose to participate in this, but see, I have and I think that I have made a good choice.
As for the latest change for us: Joshua will begin at another preschool on Monday. I have met the teachers, directors, owners and toured the school two times in the last few days. I like the set up very much. There are different rooms, which I like and he seemed to like it very much when he came with me yesterday. I will report back in on Monday to let ya'll know how he liked it. It costs more money than we were paying before and I am not sure what else I am going to be able to "cut back on" but............we will be fine.
So, change of schools is the first MAJOR change for us this year. I am sure that it will be the first of many to come and I will do my best to make them positive for everyone.
Happy Saturday. It is brisk and sunny here for us. I hope to get the house back in some kind of order and be crafty.
Huggles,
Jax
Joshy and I got ready for school and when I dropped him off at pre-school, there was an eeerie feeling in the lobby-I KNEW something was up. I walked him to class and after returning to the lobby, I was handed a letter informing us that his FABULOUS new preschool would be closing its doors on Friday for good.
Emotional. Tears. Sadness. Anger. Pretty much every emotion that I could muster up I did this week. Pozee Playzle had become a part of our extended family and what was a comfort in a difficult time for us was slamming the door in our face. LONG story short, it is over there. Some part of their ownership/management ran off with tons of money and paid NO bills. Corporate was brought in this week to deal with the parents and it just wasn't a warm and fuzzy place to be.
The Durning Family is truly devestated. We luved Pozee and what it represented to us and for us. Joshy luved his friends, Miss Vicky and most esp. Miss Beata.........yank yet another carpet out from under my child's feet. Good thing that children are resilient and much more so than we adults are.
Sometimes I wonder why things happen? I practice the philosophy that everything does happen for a reason, however, I am not certain at this point what xactly this reason might be, but I am sure that it will come to me.
As many/most people know, I also do NOT deal well with any kind of change. Well that has sure gone straight out the window of late as well. Perhaps some, if not all of this lately, is to teach ME, the unchangeable, that change is often not only good, but welcome. Heck, there is a saying about that isn't there?
Well, maybe that will be MY ali word for the year: in fact, it is: CHANGE. I wasn't even going to choose to participate in this, but see, I have and I think that I have made a good choice.
As for the latest change for us: Joshua will begin at another preschool on Monday. I have met the teachers, directors, owners and toured the school two times in the last few days. I like the set up very much. There are different rooms, which I like and he seemed to like it very much when he came with me yesterday. I will report back in on Monday to let ya'll know how he liked it. It costs more money than we were paying before and I am not sure what else I am going to be able to "cut back on" but............we will be fine.
So, change of schools is the first MAJOR change for us this year. I am sure that it will be the first of many to come and I will do my best to make them positive for everyone.
Happy Saturday. It is brisk and sunny here for us. I hope to get the house back in some kind of order and be crafty.
Huggles,
Jax
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Right Now
Right Now:
Out of my window: bright Florida Sunshine.
I am wearing: snowman pj’s; no makeup!
I am hearing: Thomas the Tank Engine DVD that is on downstairs and the CRASH of Joshy playing with choo-choos.
I am thinking :About going back to school today and the kiddos-I missed them. All of the writing papers that I did not even look at over break, much less read and score. The mountain of bills that need to be paid. The air conditioning that is not working in dh’s car and how much that one is gonna cost to fix. Getting my scraproom and the rest of the house back into some kind of “order” as it is still a disaster from having the tree up and moving all of the toys out of the playroom so the tree and the train platform could go up.
I am thankful for: my home, friends who are seemingly always there for me, a great career/job, my health as ironic as that sounds and that everything seemed to be “working” when I got out of bed this morning
I am creating: my 4th and final BG calendar to give as a gift.
I am going: to get ready for school, throw in a load of laundry and have a productive day.
I am hoping: for a great day back at school and an easy fix on the a/c issue in dh’s car.
I am reading: 4th grade demand writing tests
Around the house: there is a bigger mess than usual.
One of my favorite things: is cuddling up with Joshy in my bed each morning.
A few plans for the rest of the week: finish scoring writing tests, get my month organized at school, clean up and use my new organizer in my scraproom and in the walk in closet in there, drs. Appts. tomorrow, prepare for ms walk meeting, spend some quality time with Aunt Sue, download and upload photos, create project 365 calendar for journaling on the fly………
Take this same challenge and share you answers with us! It will be so fun to read about your life!Have a great, relaxing week (if that's possible!!)
Out of my window: bright Florida Sunshine.
I am wearing: snowman pj’s; no makeup!
I am hearing: Thomas the Tank Engine DVD that is on downstairs and the CRASH of Joshy playing with choo-choos.
I am thinking :About going back to school today and the kiddos-I missed them. All of the writing papers that I did not even look at over break, much less read and score. The mountain of bills that need to be paid. The air conditioning that is not working in dh’s car and how much that one is gonna cost to fix. Getting my scraproom and the rest of the house back into some kind of “order” as it is still a disaster from having the tree up and moving all of the toys out of the playroom so the tree and the train platform could go up.
I am thankful for: my home, friends who are seemingly always there for me, a great career/job, my health as ironic as that sounds and that everything seemed to be “working” when I got out of bed this morning
I am creating: my 4th and final BG calendar to give as a gift.
I am going: to get ready for school, throw in a load of laundry and have a productive day.
I am hoping: for a great day back at school and an easy fix on the a/c issue in dh’s car.
I am reading: 4th grade demand writing tests
Around the house: there is a bigger mess than usual.
One of my favorite things: is cuddling up with Joshy in my bed each morning.
A few plans for the rest of the week: finish scoring writing tests, get my month organized at school, clean up and use my new organizer in my scraproom and in the walk in closet in there, drs. Appts. tomorrow, prepare for ms walk meeting, spend some quality time with Aunt Sue, download and upload photos, create project 365 calendar for journaling on the fly………
Take this same challenge and share you answers with us! It will be so fun to read about your life!Have a great, relaxing week (if that's possible!!)
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Happy New Year
we rang in the new year with a wonderful new friend, the stomach bug. UGH.
joshy got sent home from school with it, brianna has had it twice, mitch has it, jaime had it and flew home with it, i got it last night and now john has it. NOT FUN.
other than that, I spent a great afternoon with my scrappy friend Jan yesterday. I worked on my 3rd but not final BG calendar. Remind me NEVER to make four calendars again. LOL. I got to do a little bit of shopping and bought some stuff on great sale. Also got a super sweet gc from jan so I barely spent a dime. woo hoo.
this morning at 10 am the last thing I wanted to do was drive over to Ruth Eckerd Hall for our performance of Imagination Movers, but I must admit, it was awesome. We had fabulous seats and my lil guy was up and dancing away. It was a wonderful show and they guys are so personable, talented and NOT too corrupted by Disney .......yet. LOL.
Low key the rest of the day. I think relaxing and recuperation are on our agenda for tom. as well.
joshy got sent home from school with it, brianna has had it twice, mitch has it, jaime had it and flew home with it, i got it last night and now john has it. NOT FUN.
other than that, I spent a great afternoon with my scrappy friend Jan yesterday. I worked on my 3rd but not final BG calendar. Remind me NEVER to make four calendars again. LOL. I got to do a little bit of shopping and bought some stuff on great sale. Also got a super sweet gc from jan so I barely spent a dime. woo hoo.
this morning at 10 am the last thing I wanted to do was drive over to Ruth Eckerd Hall for our performance of Imagination Movers, but I must admit, it was awesome. We had fabulous seats and my lil guy was up and dancing away. It was a wonderful show and they guys are so personable, talented and NOT too corrupted by Disney .......yet. LOL.
Low key the rest of the day. I think relaxing and recuperation are on our agenda for tom. as well.
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