And there is still a BUNCH to do.
John ordered his contacts(w/o prompting from me), but from Sears. What was he thinking? YIKES? Had to head over the Citrus Park Mall yesterday. That was ONE scary scary place.
Glad to get in and out without being mauled.
Aunt Sue came home last night. So happy to talk to her. She sounds like she had fun and Joshy and I can NOT wait to see her.
I have been wrapping like a crazy elf this morning and still have more to finish up so this will be brief. Then, I MUST clean or at least move some piles around. The grocery store is also on my list of things to do.
Hope you have a super Sunday,
Jax
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Happy Days
I worked the "early" shift yesterday. Surprised LOTS of teachers who greeted me with, "what are you doing here"? Lauren went to Boston for visit with her inlaws, so since it was a half day, I saved her a personal day and worked for her. Aren't I a good partner? LOL.
The kids were all dressed in their pj's and ready for hot cocoa and the Polar Express. I got lots of gifts. Some of them were even photo and scrap related. VERY sweet and thoughtful lil 8 year olds. They were all well behaved and so excited to take home their picture frames we altered for their parents. Let me tell you -wrapping 17 picture frames was a PITA, but well worth the smiles.
Now, I am officially on VACATION for the next 17 days. SOOOOOOO much to do, so I will make this brief.
Happy Saturday to all.
The kids were all dressed in their pj's and ready for hot cocoa and the Polar Express. I got lots of gifts. Some of them were even photo and scrap related. VERY sweet and thoughtful lil 8 year olds. They were all well behaved and so excited to take home their picture frames we altered for their parents. Let me tell you -wrapping 17 picture frames was a PITA, but well worth the smiles.
Now, I am officially on VACATION for the next 17 days. SOOOOOOO much to do, so I will make this brief.
Happy Saturday to all.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Catching Up
Wow, what a crazy busy five or six days it has been. Firstly, for anyone who reads this that has TWO three year olds, my hat's off to you. OMG. If Joshy and Ashy were twins and not six weeks apart in age and two hundred miles away most of the time, I think that I seriously would have considered suicide a LONG time ago.
Joshy and Ashy are two peas in a pod.....and if you know me, you KNOW i do not throw a pea analogy around lightly. Right. Ha. I will share a pic of them that will splain it all.
We had a great visit with them. Exhausting but great. Joshy's birthday choo choo party was perfection. He did not get off that train once until it was time for it to go. Weather was brisk, but sunny and it appeared that everyone had a good time.
Now the last week of school prior to vacation is a matter of maintaining some semblence of order while still having fun and trying to make them think it is all fun, but throw in some learning too. That is challenging. We decorated our gingerbread cookies to end that unit and started on Polar Express this week. However, that is all in between visits from former students who get outta school early during exams. Nice to see kiddos who are graduating from both high school and college. Wow. Makes me feel both old and small as I climb on chairs to see into their eyes utop a six foot four frame, but to be remembered from wayyyyyyy back in second grade as they are about to graduate college and go to the NFL draft.........poor joy. It is nice to know that I can be included in those surveys as that special educator who made you belive you COULD do anything you wanted.
Well, off to try to rest as the next two days will be total chaos. Sooooooo much to do and so little time. YIKES.
Enjoy.
Jackie
Joshy and Ashy are two peas in a pod.....and if you know me, you KNOW i do not throw a pea analogy around lightly. Right. Ha. I will share a pic of them that will splain it all.
We had a great visit with them. Exhausting but great. Joshy's birthday choo choo party was perfection. He did not get off that train once until it was time for it to go. Weather was brisk, but sunny and it appeared that everyone had a good time.
Now the last week of school prior to vacation is a matter of maintaining some semblence of order while still having fun and trying to make them think it is all fun, but throw in some learning too. That is challenging. We decorated our gingerbread cookies to end that unit and started on Polar Express this week. However, that is all in between visits from former students who get outta school early during exams. Nice to see kiddos who are graduating from both high school and college. Wow. Makes me feel both old and small as I climb on chairs to see into their eyes utop a six foot four frame, but to be remembered from wayyyyyyy back in second grade as they are about to graduate college and go to the NFL draft.........poor joy. It is nice to know that I can be included in those surveys as that special educator who made you belive you COULD do anything you wanted.
Well, off to try to rest as the next two days will be total chaos. Sooooooo much to do and so little time. YIKES.
Enjoy.
Jackie
Friday, December 14, 2007
Ginni's Thought Provoking 20 Survey
What one person has most inspired you in your career? That would have to be my Aunt Sue. She was a teacher for 35+ years and took me to school with her when I was little. Don't think I ever wanted to be anything else. My 6th grade teacher Leslie Greenberg solidified my luv of teaching
2. If money were not an issue, where would you live? I am quite certain that we would live right where we do right now-but a nice vacation condo on the beach somewhere would be perfection.
3. What is the best advice you ever received? Don't sweat the small stuff. It is only an aggrevation and NOT a problem
4. What is your favorite time of the day? 3:30pm. School is over and I get to go pick up my lil guy.
5 . What is the best invention since sliced bread? The computer and the internet.
6. Not including family or friends, the top three things you are thankful for. My health, modern medicine and my neurologist(okay, my career too).
7. If you had that mobile phone service, who would be in your top five (Which five people do you talk to on the phone the most)? John-although he would never answer his phone, Aunt Sue, Helen, Lauren and Amanda.
8 What things need to happen for you to have a good day? Joshy needs to listen, I wake up and everything works and the sun should be shining. Can't stand when it is gloomy for too many days. That really gets me down..
9. What is your favorite every day outfit? capris and a shirt.
10 When you are alone in the car, what do you do? I am rarely in the car alone, but I luv to listen to the radio, talk on the phone and THINK. I luv the solitude.
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? 2007 Hyndai Tucson
What would you drive if you could have it for free? I am driving it. Although I used to really really want a Volvo SUV I am now over it.
12. What one person, whom you have never met, do you wish you could have lunch with? Teri Garr. I would luv to pick her brain about MS.
13. What is the one part of your body that you like the most? My brain-even with white demylinating matter on it.LOL
14. What song, playing on the radio currently, is your favorite to hear? The Christmas Shoes song. I cry every time I hear it.
15. What is the one piece of advice that you wish you could give someone (the persons’ name is not necessary)? Be positive. Life could always be worse and it IS for so many others.
16. What are you looking forward to right now? Surviving Joshy's birthday party this weekend and the holidays with family. Christmas is going to be so much fun with a 3 year old.
17. What are the TV shows you watch every week, and hate to miss? Grey’s Anatomy, Extreme Home Makeover, SVU, ER and House
18. What is the dinner that your family eats once a week? Chicken way more than once a week.
19. If you just won $100,000, what would you use the money for? Pay off any and all debts, put half in the bank and go on an obscene vacation with my family.
20. Name one random fact about you that you think most people do not know. As a child I was painfully SHY. I wouldn't even dial 411 to get a phone number cause I was afraid to talk to the operator.(yeah there did used to be people who answered that #). Guess I outgrew that as I will talk to ANYONE now.
I tag Miami Dawn and Mary Mary
What one person has most inspired you in your career? That would have to be my Aunt Sue. She was a teacher for 35+ years and took me to school with her when I was little. Don't think I ever wanted to be anything else. My 6th grade teacher Leslie Greenberg solidified my luv of teaching
2. If money were not an issue, where would you live? I am quite certain that we would live right where we do right now-but a nice vacation condo on the beach somewhere would be perfection.
3. What is the best advice you ever received? Don't sweat the small stuff. It is only an aggrevation and NOT a problem
4. What is your favorite time of the day? 3:30pm. School is over and I get to go pick up my lil guy.
5 . What is the best invention since sliced bread? The computer and the internet.
6. Not including family or friends, the top three things you are thankful for. My health, modern medicine and my neurologist(okay, my career too).
7. If you had that mobile phone service, who would be in your top five (Which five people do you talk to on the phone the most)? John-although he would never answer his phone, Aunt Sue, Helen, Lauren and Amanda.
8 What things need to happen for you to have a good day? Joshy needs to listen, I wake up and everything works and the sun should be shining. Can't stand when it is gloomy for too many days. That really gets me down..
9. What is your favorite every day outfit? capris and a shirt.
10 When you are alone in the car, what do you do? I am rarely in the car alone, but I luv to listen to the radio, talk on the phone and THINK. I luv the solitude.
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? 2007 Hyndai Tucson
What would you drive if you could have it for free? I am driving it. Although I used to really really want a Volvo SUV I am now over it.
12. What one person, whom you have never met, do you wish you could have lunch with? Teri Garr. I would luv to pick her brain about MS.
13. What is the one part of your body that you like the most? My brain-even with white demylinating matter on it.LOL
14. What song, playing on the radio currently, is your favorite to hear? The Christmas Shoes song. I cry every time I hear it.
15. What is the one piece of advice that you wish you could give someone (the persons’ name is not necessary)? Be positive. Life could always be worse and it IS for so many others.
16. What are you looking forward to right now? Surviving Joshy's birthday party this weekend and the holidays with family. Christmas is going to be so much fun with a 3 year old.
17. What are the TV shows you watch every week, and hate to miss? Grey’s Anatomy, Extreme Home Makeover, SVU, ER and House
18. What is the dinner that your family eats once a week? Chicken way more than once a week.
19. If you just won $100,000, what would you use the money for? Pay off any and all debts, put half in the bank and go on an obscene vacation with my family.
20. Name one random fact about you that you think most people do not know. As a child I was painfully SHY. I wouldn't even dial 411 to get a phone number cause I was afraid to talk to the operator.(yeah there did used to be people who answered that #). Guess I outgrew that as I will talk to ANYONE now.
I tag Miami Dawn and Mary Mary
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
RAK
As some of you know, I won a RAK contest that I didn't even enter on CK's website.
The prize that they were offerring, I already owned, so I told them to RAK it to someone that didn't have it. Well, I got an email saying that Lisa Bearnson wanted me to have something and to pick what I wanted from their website.
I wanted the Organizational Tips book since before it was released but never had gotten around to ordering it. Who couldn't use tips on being more organized right?
Well, to my thrill and delight, it just arrived via the Fed Ex man. I was so excited, I ripped open the envelope and not only is it the book I am dying to read, but on the front cover, it is personalized to ME and autographed by Lisa B.
Yes, she is overrated and seems simply "perfect" but at this very moment, she is, to me.
Thank you Lisa for teaching us and reminding us all that being selfless is so very important!!
ScrappinJackie
The prize that they were offerring, I already owned, so I told them to RAK it to someone that didn't have it. Well, I got an email saying that Lisa Bearnson wanted me to have something and to pick what I wanted from their website.
I wanted the Organizational Tips book since before it was released but never had gotten around to ordering it. Who couldn't use tips on being more organized right?
Well, to my thrill and delight, it just arrived via the Fed Ex man. I was so excited, I ripped open the envelope and not only is it the book I am dying to read, but on the front cover, it is personalized to ME and autographed by Lisa B.
Yes, she is overrated and seems simply "perfect" but at this very moment, she is, to me.
Thank you Lisa for teaching us and reminding us all that being selfless is so very important!!
ScrappinJackie
Disappointmet
Of course, just got the call. They aren't coming today, but tomorrow. Whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE this pool company and I know HATE is a very strong word, but that is truly the emotion I am feeling.
I HATE this pool company and I know HATE is a very strong word, but that is truly the emotion I am feeling.
Today's the Day or so they say!!
Apparently the pool is supposed to be "shot" today and filled. We shall see. They hold last place in finishing in my book so........only high hopes here.
I have already called the Water Dept. for the pool fill credit and the forms are on their way. YEAH.
Amanda came in last night for a short visit. She sat in too much traffic so that cut our visit short, but it was great catching up. She is off to Washington today for another surgery so I wish for a speedy recovery for her and will post when I know that she is well next week. We had some fun driving over to WSD to their Holiday Open House. We didnt' get to do the MNT as we got their too late to complete them. They looked cute but lots of stamping and I am so NOT a stamper. I was a "good" girl and didn't spend too too much. Okay a little, but I spent less than i did at their Fall Festival and I got to catch up with some ole friends.
I was thrilled to see Margot and chat. Well, we did more than chat and I think the Divas were all too thrilled to literally throw us out-LOL.
Happy Hump Day to all,
Jackie
I have already called the Water Dept. for the pool fill credit and the forms are on their way. YEAH.
Amanda came in last night for a short visit. She sat in too much traffic so that cut our visit short, but it was great catching up. She is off to Washington today for another surgery so I wish for a speedy recovery for her and will post when I know that she is well next week. We had some fun driving over to WSD to their Holiday Open House. We didnt' get to do the MNT as we got their too late to complete them. They looked cute but lots of stamping and I am so NOT a stamper. I was a "good" girl and didn't spend too too much. Okay a little, but I spent less than i did at their Fall Festival and I got to catch up with some ole friends.
I was thrilled to see Margot and chat. Well, we did more than chat and I think the Divas were all too thrilled to literally throw us out-LOL.
Happy Hump Day to all,
Jackie
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Random thoughts
and ponderings. i sound like an episode from an old saturday night live episode.
why is it that my "friend" who i never had for years, now decides that it should arrive every 3 weeks or so?
when xactly does menopause begin so I can go thru it all NOW?! cause I am ready and over this whole "thing".
how am i ever going to get everything that needs to be-accomplished between now and xmas?
how many people r actually going to show up to joshy's party since not a single SOLE has bothered to rsvp. ugh.
and lastly, when will I ever stop feeling soooooooo damn tired all the time?
if anyone has an answer to any of these rants, please feel free to post a comment. it will warm my heart to know that someone bothers to read this thing. lol.
why is it that my "friend" who i never had for years, now decides that it should arrive every 3 weeks or so?
when xactly does menopause begin so I can go thru it all NOW?! cause I am ready and over this whole "thing".
how am i ever going to get everything that needs to be-accomplished between now and xmas?
how many people r actually going to show up to joshy's party since not a single SOLE has bothered to rsvp. ugh.
and lastly, when will I ever stop feeling soooooooo damn tired all the time?
if anyone has an answer to any of these rants, please feel free to post a comment. it will warm my heart to know that someone bothers to read this thing. lol.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Snagged from Linda
1. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER? I am Jacqueline Michele after my grandfather Jacob(Jack) and his brother Meier.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Yesterday typing my ONE MORE DAY entry.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Yes
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? rare roast beef
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes -just one
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Oh I would like to think so.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? Yes!!
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Nope. Those suckers were removed when I was in Kindergarten.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Not for a million $$
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Not a fan. I will eat it dry but don't like anything mushy so I rarely eat it.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Um no, that would require another bend.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes I am, in many many ways.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Coffee
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? hair, teeth, eyes, smiles
15. RED OR PINK? red
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOU? *SIGH* My weight
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Daddy
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? Yes
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Pajamas that actually match today.
20. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A breakfast burrito for dinner
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Absolutely NOTHING and it is a beautiful sound since I sent the "boys" off today.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Purple
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? DH's cologne.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My step mom, Lorry
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Ummm yes very much.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Football, Nascar.
27. HAIR COLOR? Original dark brown. Now a little lighter with a reddish addition via Loreal. AND lots of gray in there too.
28. EYE COLOR? Brown, but every now and then Joshy says he will share his blue ones with me so mine are blue too.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope. I have glasses but rarely wear them. My arms just aren't long enough lately though, so I might have to cave and dig em out.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? Ummm It would be easier to ask what I don’t like!
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? happy endings
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Elf
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Gray with Tigger pj;s
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Spring
35. HUGS OR KISSES? I ’ll take both
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Coffee ice cream
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Whatever picture book Joshy hands me and demands that I read
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Joshua
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Elf and Friday Night Lights then I was out like a light.
42. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SOUND? deep giggles from my cute lil guy when I tickle him!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Neither. Billy and Elton
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Hawaii
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Umm I have a few talents none of them are special. Everyone can do them!
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? New York City, NY
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Everyones- I love reading these things.
1. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER? I am Jacqueline Michele after my grandfather Jacob(Jack) and his brother Meier.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Yesterday typing my ONE MORE DAY entry.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Yes
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? rare roast beef
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes -just one
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Oh I would like to think so.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? Yes!!
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Nope. Those suckers were removed when I was in Kindergarten.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Not for a million $$
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Not a fan. I will eat it dry but don't like anything mushy so I rarely eat it.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Um no, that would require another bend.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes I am, in many many ways.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Coffee
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? hair, teeth, eyes, smiles
15. RED OR PINK? red
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOU? *SIGH* My weight
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Daddy
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? Yes
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Pajamas that actually match today.
20. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A breakfast burrito for dinner
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Absolutely NOTHING and it is a beautiful sound since I sent the "boys" off today.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Purple
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? DH's cologne.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My step mom, Lorry
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Ummm yes very much.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Football, Nascar.
27. HAIR COLOR? Original dark brown. Now a little lighter with a reddish addition via Loreal. AND lots of gray in there too.
28. EYE COLOR? Brown, but every now and then Joshy says he will share his blue ones with me so mine are blue too.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope. I have glasses but rarely wear them. My arms just aren't long enough lately though, so I might have to cave and dig em out.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? Ummm It would be easier to ask what I don’t like!
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? happy endings
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Elf
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Gray with Tigger pj;s
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Spring
35. HUGS OR KISSES? I ’ll take both
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Coffee ice cream
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ??
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Whatever picture book Joshy hands me and demands that I read
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Joshua
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Elf and Friday Night Lights then I was out like a light.
42. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SOUND? deep giggles from my cute lil guy when I tickle him!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Neither. Billy and Elton
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Hawaii
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Umm I have a few talents none of them are special. Everyone can do them!
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? New York City, NY
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Everyones- I love reading these things.
Friday, December 7, 2007
One More Day
Inspired by Oprah this week, if I had one more day to spend with anyone, who would it be??????
Well, that is a question that pretty much ANYONE could answer about me and for the few and far between that can't, I will help you out. I would give my right hand(and I am a righty, but willing to compromise and learn to be a lefty) for the opportunity to spend "one more day" with my best friend, confindant and sparring partner, also known to me affecionately as DADDY!!
Jan. 27th will mark four years since the awful day when dh showed up at school and spoke the most horrible words that I have ever heard in my entire life, "Honey, Dad's Gone". I thought he was crazed-then with his mother standing by his side, I thought he meant HIS Dad. I looked at them and said, I'm sorry. "No, honey, DADDY IS GONE". Those words will haunt me for the rest of my life.
As a child, my father was not the warm and loving, compassionate soul one would expect a Daddy to be. In fact, he was downright horrible to me at times. I was the blacksheep of the family. His SON could do NO wrong and I could do NO right.
As an adult, that changed very quickly when I confronted him. I am the only one who ever had the gumption to ever confront him. He was ONE tough cookie, my Dad. He agreed he hadn't been daddy of the world, but that he couldnt' change the past. However, he could certainly make the effort to move forward and be different from that day forward. AND HE WAS. For the longest time, he didn't know ME. He looked at me and thought that he saw my birthmother(however, the entire world will tell you that I am 100% TINSKY and look just like my Dad and NO ONE ever has to ask who Aunt Sue is to me cause we look just alike).
So, for the last 13 years of his life, my dad became everything to me. He was still a tough cookie, but just on the outside.
He cried alll the time. He had always been a moosh, but happy times, he cried. Sad times he cried and he gave me the hardest time all the time, but that is why I say he was my sparring partner.
On Monday Jan. 26th, I spoke to him after school, as always. We spoke at least 2-3 times a day. I went off to real estate school that night and John called him on break from class at 9pm. He said that he was coming up on Friday to see our new house that he had coached us on purchasing arguing the contract specifics. However, they would have to leave early on Sunday so that they would be home in time to watch the Super Bowl.
John asked if he wanted to talk to me, he said NO. I spoke to her earlier and if she is with you then I know she is okay.
Back to class we went. The next morning at 8:30am is when John told me the news.
Daddy went to sleep after his conversation with John and woke up at 3am to use the bathroom. When my step-mom woke up at 7am, he was gone!! He never got to see our new house, xcept in photos and the thing that is the HARDEST thing for me to this minute as I sit here crying, is that he NEVER got to see/meet his grandson in this world.
All he ever wanted is for us to be happy and have a child. Well, we found out we were pg. 6 weeks after losing him the day we returned from our cruise on the Queen Mary(Daddy planned the trip for 9 of us). I am not a spiritual person but i KNOW that my son IS my dad. He looked like him in the womb and he is now my sparring partner. He is everything my father luved-bright, gorgeous and percotious.
If I had one more day, I would make sure that he knew just how much I luved him and I would cherish the time that he would get to spend with his grandson. Most of all, I would make him proud as he watched me be the MOMMY I never had.
I luv you Daddy and I KNOW you are with me, but oh how I would give you that right hand in a second for ONE MORE DAY!!
Well, that is a question that pretty much ANYONE could answer about me and for the few and far between that can't, I will help you out. I would give my right hand(and I am a righty, but willing to compromise and learn to be a lefty) for the opportunity to spend "one more day" with my best friend, confindant and sparring partner, also known to me affecionately as DADDY!!
Jan. 27th will mark four years since the awful day when dh showed up at school and spoke the most horrible words that I have ever heard in my entire life, "Honey, Dad's Gone". I thought he was crazed-then with his mother standing by his side, I thought he meant HIS Dad. I looked at them and said, I'm sorry. "No, honey, DADDY IS GONE". Those words will haunt me for the rest of my life.
As a child, my father was not the warm and loving, compassionate soul one would expect a Daddy to be. In fact, he was downright horrible to me at times. I was the blacksheep of the family. His SON could do NO wrong and I could do NO right.
As an adult, that changed very quickly when I confronted him. I am the only one who ever had the gumption to ever confront him. He was ONE tough cookie, my Dad. He agreed he hadn't been daddy of the world, but that he couldnt' change the past. However, he could certainly make the effort to move forward and be different from that day forward. AND HE WAS. For the longest time, he didn't know ME. He looked at me and thought that he saw my birthmother(however, the entire world will tell you that I am 100% TINSKY and look just like my Dad and NO ONE ever has to ask who Aunt Sue is to me cause we look just alike).
So, for the last 13 years of his life, my dad became everything to me. He was still a tough cookie, but just on the outside.
He cried alll the time. He had always been a moosh, but happy times, he cried. Sad times he cried and he gave me the hardest time all the time, but that is why I say he was my sparring partner.
On Monday Jan. 26th, I spoke to him after school, as always. We spoke at least 2-3 times a day. I went off to real estate school that night and John called him on break from class at 9pm. He said that he was coming up on Friday to see our new house that he had coached us on purchasing arguing the contract specifics. However, they would have to leave early on Sunday so that they would be home in time to watch the Super Bowl.
John asked if he wanted to talk to me, he said NO. I spoke to her earlier and if she is with you then I know she is okay.
Back to class we went. The next morning at 8:30am is when John told me the news.
Daddy went to sleep after his conversation with John and woke up at 3am to use the bathroom. When my step-mom woke up at 7am, he was gone!! He never got to see our new house, xcept in photos and the thing that is the HARDEST thing for me to this minute as I sit here crying, is that he NEVER got to see/meet his grandson in this world.
All he ever wanted is for us to be happy and have a child. Well, we found out we were pg. 6 weeks after losing him the day we returned from our cruise on the Queen Mary(Daddy planned the trip for 9 of us). I am not a spiritual person but i KNOW that my son IS my dad. He looked like him in the womb and he is now my sparring partner. He is everything my father luved-bright, gorgeous and percotious.
If I had one more day, I would make sure that he knew just how much I luved him and I would cherish the time that he would get to spend with his grandson. Most of all, I would make him proud as he watched me be the MOMMY I never had.
I luv you Daddy and I KNOW you are with me, but oh how I would give you that right hand in a second for ONE MORE DAY!!
The weather is CRAZY
From 40 something degrees in the morning to nearly 70 again. CRAZY. I did enjoy our little cold snap this week. I even got to wear some holiday sweaters without completely melting by day's end. However, we will be back into the 80's before the end of the weekend. CRAZY. Not that I want it to stay cold, heck I lived in NJ long enough and do not ever want to deal with that again, but a bit of a snap for our Christmas Choo Choo ride on Sunday with Santa would have been appreciated. Oh well. We will have fun in tank tops and shorts.
Have a great Friday and an awesome weekend.
Have a great Friday and an awesome weekend.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Has anyone told you a secret this week?~I do know who some of the Secret Snowmen are at school, I guess that is a secret.
Can you whistle?YES
Next vacation you're going on?Sadly, we don't have one planned. I luv looking forward to vacations.
What did you dream last night?I can't remember
Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?~No thank goodness! Not in awhile. I did have a freaky cell phone thing going on for awhile right after my Dad died.
What is something you've learned about yourself recently?~That I just can't do it all anymore.
What's your favorite number?~22
How many things in your past do you regret?~I don’t regret the past, it shaped my present~
Do you have a best friend?~Yes
Do aliens exist?~Hmm, I say NO
Would you take a bullet for anyone?~Yes, I would. Joshy and John, without a thought~
What do you want to be when you grow up?~I am doing it right now, but I will never completely grow up.
If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?~Probably scrapbook and get organized
~What makes you mad?~ignorance
What makes you happy?~Being with my family.
One wish?~Health and happiness for all I know and luv
Name something that you would love to eat right now?~Chicken parm.
Last time you kissed someone?~This morning when I dropped Joshy off at Aunt Sue's
Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?~No~
Have you ever gone camping?~Yes but not since I was a kid at camp. My idea of camping is a Hotel.
Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?~I don’t remember a time when we did NOT sing.
When is the last time you got flowers?~It has been a LONG LONG time. Used to get them allll the time when we were dating.
What does your hair look like right now?~Looks good actually. Just got it cut.
EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT Ring?~Yes.-more than my share.
.EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?~Sure
LAST FOOD YOU ATE?-chicken sandwich at school. NOT a good one either
LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED?~hmmm, John's cousin Kristen
.FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY? Helen
TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?~I luv the sun, sand and beach. Swimming with the dolphins left me completely speechless.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?~Spring
WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?~7ish
>WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?~ Joshua Daniel
~HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?~Yes~we went on three of them in 16 months. I wanna go sooooo badly again. Just need Joshy to get a bit older.
DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?~Yes and I couldn’t live without her.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?~More times than I can count.
WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?~too much to mention individually
Name a song that describes how you’re feeling.~I’ll Be Home For Christmas
What do you spend the most money on?~Groceries~
What is your favorite drink? Coffee, hot/cold whatever
Are you happy with life?~YES
Can you whistle?YES
Next vacation you're going on?Sadly, we don't have one planned. I luv looking forward to vacations.
What did you dream last night?I can't remember
Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?~No thank goodness! Not in awhile. I did have a freaky cell phone thing going on for awhile right after my Dad died.
What is something you've learned about yourself recently?~That I just can't do it all anymore.
What's your favorite number?~22
How many things in your past do you regret?~I don’t regret the past, it shaped my present~
Do you have a best friend?~Yes
Do aliens exist?~Hmm, I say NO
Would you take a bullet for anyone?~Yes, I would. Joshy and John, without a thought~
What do you want to be when you grow up?~I am doing it right now, but I will never completely grow up.
If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?~Probably scrapbook and get organized
~What makes you mad?~ignorance
What makes you happy?~Being with my family.
One wish?~Health and happiness for all I know and luv
Name something that you would love to eat right now?~Chicken parm.
Last time you kissed someone?~This morning when I dropped Joshy off at Aunt Sue's
Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?~No~
Have you ever gone camping?~Yes but not since I was a kid at camp. My idea of camping is a Hotel.
Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?~I don’t remember a time when we did NOT sing.
When is the last time you got flowers?~It has been a LONG LONG time. Used to get them allll the time when we were dating.
What does your hair look like right now?~Looks good actually. Just got it cut.
EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT Ring?~Yes.-more than my share.
.EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?~Sure
LAST FOOD YOU ATE?-chicken sandwich at school. NOT a good one either
LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED?~hmmm, John's cousin Kristen
.FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY? Helen
TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?~I luv the sun, sand and beach. Swimming with the dolphins left me completely speechless.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?~Spring
WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?~7ish
>WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?~ Joshua Daniel
~HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?~Yes~we went on three of them in 16 months. I wanna go sooooo badly again. Just need Joshy to get a bit older.
DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?~Yes and I couldn’t live without her.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?~More times than I can count.
WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?~too much to mention individually
Name a song that describes how you’re feeling.~I’ll Be Home For Christmas
What do you spend the most money on?~Groceries~
What is your favorite drink? Coffee, hot/cold whatever
Are you happy with life?~YES
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