I am sad :(

Got the phonecall this morning that I have been dreading. My Nana died.
I am full of guilt for not getting down there, but I just couldn't. Now because of the Jewish holidays they have decided to bury her up in NY on Tuesday. Well, that isn't going to be possible for me. There is only one direct flight that would get me there in time, but then I would have to rent a car, drive two hours to the cemetary and do it all myself.
John can't take time off of the new job and it just isn't in the cards for me. I feel badly. I do want to be there to say good-bye, but .............

So, I sit here with a sad heart and feel like a total SH*T, but I will mourn in my own way.

I sure hope tomorrow is a better day. I don' tlike feeling like this.

Rest in peace Nana. No more suffering and give Papa a hug from HIS Jackie.